Should I stay or should I go?

The only thing that I really had, have or I will have is myself. Almost nothing in my life has been easy and I had to fight in one or the other way for it. And I just want to have one simple thing without even one single thought whether is right or not, whether it will work or not… Because when you know it, you don’t have to think about it. You just go for it…And what will happen? Nothing more that you feel good and happy and feel that there is someone who gets you and is happy that you can share and live it…

I mean I don’t want halfhearted things or pragmatical solutions – I don’t feel happy with them. I can wait, I could adjust, but the thing is – do I want it? 

 I saw a lot of things there.

 I went to the ghettos.

I watched the buses arriving and leaving.

 The weather was so shitty like in Hamburg.

 I gazed in the grayness of the one of the sunnies countries in Europe.

 And I smiled.

 I still did not know - should I stay or should I go?