Should I stay or should I go?

The only thing that I really had, have or I will have is myself. Almost nothing in my life has been easy and I had to fight in one or the other way for it. And I just want to have one simple thing without even one single thought whether is right or not, whether it will work or not… Because when you know it, you don’t have to think about it. You just go for it…And what will happen? Nothing more that you feel good and happy and feel that there is someone who gets you and is happy that you can share and live it…

I mean I don’t want halfhearted things or pragmatical solutions – I don’t feel happy with them. I can wait, I could adjust, but the thing is – do I want it? 

 I saw a lot of things there.

 I went to the ghettos.

I watched the buses arriving and leaving.

 The weather was so shitty like in Hamburg.

 I gazed in the grayness of the one of the sunnies countries in Europe.

 And I smiled.

 I still did not know - should I stay or should I go?

And other things during the stay. Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.

I ate and drunk. A lot. Finally, the food was better than in Hamburg.

 Once, I wanted to grab some meat from the plate of the Spanish guy sitting next to me and almost lost my hand. Spanish are really sensitive when it comes to their food. A lot of unemployment there and now they guard their food like their eyes...

I had also a lot of coffee there. Cafe con leche. Love coffee.

 It makes me happy and lively.

 I watched also couple of soccer games there. Spanish are soccer-crazy.

 That was part of my life there. Sitting in bars, drinking cerveza and watching soccer.

 Good life.

Afterwards getting some snacks with the Spanish. They love to eat on their feets. Not sitting. Staying and eating. Lots of pigs die there. Almost so much like in Germonkey.

I am more like Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.

The food during the stay

I ate a lot.

 A lot of eggs.

 A lot of eggs with seafood.

 A lot of meat.

 And bread.

 And then again eggs.

And I drunk a lot of cerveza.

The stay

I haven't wrote since long time. Guess why.

 I was in Madrid.

 It is full of life.

It is full of light.

It is full of royals.

That's funny, or not actually. A Spanish judge charged Princess Cristina - younger daughter of King Juan Carlos - with tax fraud and money laundering.

I also wore a crown from a horse and horse rider.

I like Madrid. Especially the food.